I find that it’s not a passive process. These energies actually corrode away your insides. That its actually a debilitating process to not face up to what is most urgent and creative in your life. What is your pattern in other words.
"Always the energy smoulders inside, when it remains unlit, the body fills with dense smoke." It's almost as if you can never really put the fire out and so you smother it. And what happens is this dense smoke, this particulate matter, fills up your insides and it numbs you, and that’s an experience of being creatively blocked, a kind of numbness, you don't want to do your life but you don't want to do anything else either. So you get this equal and opposite reaction.
I feel that this kind of numb trembling feeling you get in the body is there because this energy is so strong inside us that it actually takes tremendous energy to keep it in place, and to keep it covered over. And so the reason we have no energy for anything else is that all our powers are engaged in keeping this interior urgency at bay because its always going to be there. It's your life and no one else can live it.
Thomas Moore
Maybe its easier to live a life of not being creative, because then we can hide and we can be concerned about things that are light. The problems may seem heavy in some way but actually the life itself is not terribly heavy. But I think if any of us were to let our soul manifest itself, show itself, then we would find great pleasure, but we would also realize that we are part of a bigger community.
Whenever I talk this way I think of Rilke, and his book " Letters to a Young Poet." He advises the young poet to always write his poetry from the deepest place possible. So that the poetry will come from a place that is not affected by all these surface fears and anxieties and expectations and interpretations. It will come in a more raw form or a deeper place that's just full of one's own individuality. And I think we can live that way, we can live from a deeper place.
Gabrielle Roth
Its a connection to soul. It’s a connection to the mystery. It’s a connection to the fascination of living in the unknown, in the creative force of nature. And I think that when we make that connection, all the neuroses drop away. When we get behind the full force of all our creative impulses and instincts, then it’s like we don't have time for all this other self-important, tear-me-down, build-me-up, reconstruct me.
We don't have time for that because we have a mission then. We have a purpose, we have some reason to be here, a destiny. And I think that for me, I found that in my dance. And I continue to find that in my dance. I feel that if each of us could be allowed ... and the only person who can give you this permission is yourself ... to really follow your instincts and your impulses to that place where you feel that power of being truly connected and inspired.
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